Lady Death

2007-01-10T19:17:00.000+08:00

So little time so much to do..

I've stopped making wishes as none of them come true..

2007-01-08T00:52:00.000+08:00

Isnt it amazing how much you can
keep bottled up inside of you?
And whats even more amazing is how
you can just walk around
and no one would have any idea

2007-01-05T19:20:00.000+08:00

Let me answer the question that was printed on the cover of TIME (Jan 15 07)..

Does sending more U.S soldiers to Iraq make any sense..?

Both you & I clearly know the answer to that.. Obviously it make no sense at all.. What's the point of sending them there.. Oh right maybe to safeguard other country's natural resources..? No..? It's the new year & Bush should get a new hobby.. Dear Mr Bush.. Try getting a normal hobby like playing golf or collect stamps or play chess.. Or you can just screw your wife to waste time.. I'm sure you have not done that in a very long time.. There's simply no time since you're perpetually poking your nose in other people's business right.. Tiring innit..? Poor you..

Moving on, I'm feeling the pressure of being a Year 2 student.. It's only the 1st week of school & my assignments are piling up.. God save me.. On a happier note, we moved to a new campus.. Aren't you happy for me..? Campus is not as big as what I had in mind.. But definitely bigger than both campuses.. New facilities.. Everything is NEW.. & I loathe the track.. I know the P.E department must be disappointed because the tracks are not humongous enough..

Oh right..

HAPPY ~~2006~~ 2007 !!

Never too late to wish you people that yeah..? After all it's still the 1st week of January..
Have a very pleasant year ahead =))

2006-12-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ~~17th~~ 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
Aren't you happy that I'm FINALLY legal.. I've been 'illegal' for way too long.. It's a very happy thing but why somewhere at the back of my mind I feel sad.. Maybe because every year, legal or not, I'm getting older.. Expectations are getting higher.. Life getting tougher..

I wish.. I wish.. I wish.. I wish i could turn back time & freeze.. I wanna go back to those distant days of my childhood.. No expectations to meet.. No cash flow problems.. Life was as simple as ABC.. Shall not dampen my mood & enjoy my birthday..!! Lets PARTYYYY..

Celebrated my birthday,my girlies & 'boy' birthdays together yesterday at Swensen's.. I love them to pieces =)) Hope you people like the prezzies..!

The oh so wonderful birthday cake =)) Thanks Fifi..!

The five birthday-ers + FiFI

Masshahdila - 9 Dec 1989
I LOVE YOU CHIP
So have you opened your presents in the comfort of your own room..?!
Remember open it SLOWLY ok haha..
Thanks for the body shop stuff!!
Sorry for giving you something from Body Shop too..! Haha..

Noor Hendra Shahril - 18 Dec 1988
One of the two 'legals' among the 5 of us HAHA
Remember not to finish up Fifi's expensive prezzie..
Only available in Iceland..!!
Thanks for the beautiful earrings =))

Nurul Fizah (or is it Nurulfizah..?!) - 20 dec 1989.
Hehe sorry eh..
Oh my dinooooo..!
Thanks for the teddy..
I made a new friend..!
I'll call it Raphael.. Nice innit..!

Nurul Atika - 23 Dec 1989

Dudette your hair was FINE.. Like seriously..
I made another friend thanks to you..!
I named it Mod Girl !!

Thanks Mum & Dad for the bag..!

I'd like to thank everyone who wished me Happy Birthday either in person, by text, by phone, by friendster by e-mail.. Whether it was yesterday, last night, this morning or a few mins ago..

Thanks.. I'm waiting for my presents..! Hahaha..

Oh & Cik Wati.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO!!

2006-12-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

When are you coming home, Sabbie?
When are you coming home?
We lit up the house like we always do but it doesn't seem bright 'cause we can't have you.
In my prayers I ask God to keep you safe.
Come home!
It's hard to enjoy the holidays without you.
And someday our family will be together again.
Wow! You know we'll have a great big party then.
Maybe we could go and get some ice cream together but I really don't care what we do.

2006-12-28T19:20:00.000+08:00

2 more days to MY birthday =P
3 more days to Hari Raya Haji
4 more days to JAN 1 2007!!
6 more days to the start of school term (Dreading it!!)
I conclude that Maddona is a liar..! Time goes by so slowly..?! What bollocks is that..?!

My top 10 favourite TV shows (english) of 2006 =))

10 - Singapore Idol Season

9 - My Name is Earl

8 - Nip/Tuck

7 - Boston Legal

6 - The Ellen Show

5 - Prison Break

4 - Project Runway

3 - America's Next Top Model

2 - Las Vegas

1 - Grey's Anatomy

My top 10 favourite songs of 2006 =))

10 - Irreplaceable - Beyonce

9 - Make Damn Sure - Taking Back Sunday

8 - Miss Murder - AFI

7 - Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence

6 - Kenangan terindah - Samsons

5 - Hey There Delilah - Plain White T

4 - Ends Tonight - The All American-Rejects

3 - Lips of an Angel - Hinder

2 - LDN - Lily Allen

1 - Cancer - My Chemical Romance

2006-12-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

It's been a pretty tiring yet fun christmas weekend.. Am zonked..
I'll post the photos soon..I think..
2006 is gonna end in 6 days time.. Fast innit..?
Hope you it was a fruitful year for all of you =))
Have a happy christmas & a nice new year..

I'm gonna leave you with my two of my all time favourite Christmas song =))

Last Christmas - Busted's version

Jingle Bells

Video not that clear.. Soz..

2006-12-21T15:30:00.000+08:00

It's sad being the only child innit..? So tell me all the only child out there..
Don't you get bored staying home alone with one of your parent & no other siblings to disturb or play a prank on..?
I'm already bored, sick & tired of being the 'only child'..
I can't disturb my sister when she's sleeping or watching telly or on the phone or whatever..
Hell I can't bug her to go out with me etc..
There's simply no one for me to disturb or to disturb me..
I've already irritate my parents enough..
My sister would probably mock me when she read this (that is if she can be arse to read this) cause well I miss her.. HAHAHA..
Cik Nur is lucky now that Cik Hafiz is back.. They can irritate the hell out of each other till either of them decided to go overseas & study.. ALAH!!

Apart from being bored & lonely, you HAVE to do all the house chores by yourself..
Take me for example.. All I used to do was to hang the clothes, wash the dishes & sometimes sweep the floor..
Now I have to do 3/4 of the chores at home..
God save me & my 'delicate' hands..

Of course there are pros & cons for everything..
One of the pros is that you get undivided love & attention from your parents (which in my case I don't really fancy HAHA)
MAYBE you can get almost 3/4 of the things on your wish list..
But sadly it's not the case for me..
I may be the 'only child' in Singapore but my parents still have my sister to support..
Sad innit..? Oh well.. One have to sacrifice in order for the family to erm erm succeed..? HAHAHA.. Bollocks =))

Sis & me.. *1 2 3: AWWW*

2006-12-17T12:27:00.000+08:00

Samson - Kenangan Terindah

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati
Wooo

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

I would translate it but I myself don't really know some of the words =))

2006-12-16T19:08:00.000+08:00

You can try being someone you're not..

But at the end of the day, you can't simply quit being yourself..

Taggie replies
Fizah: FIJAHH.. Miss you tons..
MissyG: No I've been using this skin for a few weeks now.. Hahaha.. & Yeah I know.. So how's work..?
Fifi: Shut up .. I'm tired of that song.. Seriously =))
JT: Now then you tag.. hahaha..
Stels: Right if you like my blogskin that is.. =)) Well you can also come back next year..
Teng: Thanks for tagging
Ah Wei: Happy Xmas to you too..
Atika: Tell me something new dudette..! Haha
Fairuz: No fydgy rocks your smelly socks haha.. & since when I denied that I'm Fazlinn HAHAHA
Cornelia: & Why can't you call me your love..? Haha..

2006-11-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

There's really so much to say but where do I start..?

Had fun with my aunts & cousins..
Had fun with Atika & Fifi..
Was mesmerised by the AKE performance.. To me it was plesant-sounding, harmonious, melodic, sweet, pleasing yadda yadda yadda..
Was laughing hysterically at some of the AKE members who danced.. [Note :Actually just one member.. Starts with H & ends with A =)) ]
Tried not to laugh at that poor man who fell down..
Had fun cam-whoring with Atika & Fifi at the staircase & the erm yeah this place..
Nice dinner at Laupasat(sp..?)
& now, I'm one happy girl =))

All in all, today was a fucktastic day..

I'll update in detail. tomorrow..? We shall see = ))

Goodnight & sweet dreams..

* the hardest part of this is leaving you*

2006-11-21T18:01:00.000+08:00

Raya 06 =))
As usual pardom my fugliness..

2006-11-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

First & foremost, I would like to wish all the NOVEMBER babies a very very HAPPY BIRTHDAY =)) A year older & hopefully wiser..

It's nice to just hang out with friends & drinking hot choc or caffe mochawhile it's raining outside..
Talking about life, making fun of each other & laughing with them..
I appreciate moments like these =))
Jalan kayu with them this Sat.. It'll be a blast =))

p/s: My iPod is ALIVE.. HURRAY.. Aren't you happy for me..?!

2006-11-15T02:13:00.000+08:00

You Belong to Me

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sun rise from the tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me

Oh I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me

2006-11-10T21:21:00.000+08:00

How I manage to finish a pack of Fisherman's & friends sweet in 1/2 a day I don't know..
Thank god it's sugar free & I guess I'm addicted to it..
Thanks arh Hendra.. Tsk tsk..

Life's been pretty much very korean-ish & smooth sailing..
It's either going out & spending my money like water or at home snuggled happily with my pillows watching korean dramas..
I'm content with life right now.. There's nothing significant for me to worry about..
Ah if only I can experience this euphoric feeling every single day..
Righttttttt..
Everyone knows life's a bitch..
One minute you'll feel jovial & the next you, melancholy hit you hard in the face..

Perhaps Love - Princess Hours OST (Translation)

I don't remember when it happened.
I'd get dizzy just thinking about you.
Because my thoughts kept stretching, my heart was surprised.
It's a little awkward that I keep saying to you that "it's nothing"
and that "my heart's just trifling"

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Even if I try to explain my feelings, the only true way to understand
would be to become me and feel them.
I'm already inside of you, just how you're inside of me.
I don't know if we've gotten used to the meaning between us.

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Now that I think about it, there were so many moments of fluttering.
I'll make up for all the time lost.

I'll be with you and give you only good memories,
so in return you can't leave me.
Even the slightest moments make me feel uneasy
Stay with me

I'm loving you (until then)
like this (only you) already

Credits: aheeyah.com & Jungie =))

2006-10-31T10:00:00.000+08:00

What if I tell you what I've been longing to say..
Would you stay or walk away..?
Sometimes when you look into my eyes..
Do you see what I'm worth..?
If I give you my hand would you reach out & grab it..?
If I fall would you be there to catch me..?
Cause I'm waiting..
Waiting for you to brake my fall..
Cause I'm falling..
Falling deep into this gigantic black hole..
It's not fun being here alone..
I'm seeking solace from the far corners of the earth..

I'll keep wondering..

2006-10-30T19:09:00.000+08:00

I shall update about my oh so boring life..
Firstly, my gum hurts.. Not because of the excess sugar from carbonated drinks & sweets (mind you I drank plain water & eat sugar free sweets)..
My mum was saying that maybe my mouth is too heaty.. How could it be when all I did these few days was opening my mouth to talk or eat or yawn..
& here I was happy & hoping that my wisdom tooth is finally growing (i.e if it has not grown yet).. Well I guess I'm not wise enough.. Boo hoo hoo..

Went JB with my parents.. Dad not working..
Can a person hate & adore JB at the same time..? Yupz only contradicting human being like yours truly..
I hate JB for it's dirty environment (being an arse here..!) but I like how cheap most stuffs are (exchange rate & all)..
I can happily go around the supermarket or the shops & take whatever I want & put it in the shopping basket/trolley without getting mum nagging..
I can't do that in Singapore obviously..
So Malaysia is my shopping heaven..

These past few days were tiring yet fun..
Raya-ing to aunts , uncles & god knows who the other people are houses..
Gonna post more pictures later =))
Grams burst into tears during lunch yesterday cause she was thinking of how lonely Sis is in Melb.. Sweet innit..? 1..2..3.. *awwwwwwwwww* =))
For now I shall continue jalan raya-ing till my baju kurung is drenched with my perspire(eeww I know)..

Oh & Fath is this update real enough for you..? Nonsensical twerp =))

2006-10-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

Let them do the talking =))
Pardon my fugliness =))

http://fazzielynz.shutterfly.com/action/?a=9KbNGTVwxIo

2006-10-24T09:08:00.000+08:00

There is a difference between loving, caring & love..
& although they may often be mistaken for each other, they are very different ..

Caring is when you don't want someone to ever become
hurt, unsuccesful & just to be happy..
Loving is when you can't live without someone
no matter how hard it may be..
Love causes people to be bound together
& when you put loving & caring together
you get soul mates..

2006-10-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

First & foremost, I would like say a million thank yous to Allah..
Allah still listens to my prayers even though I've been a shitty arse Muslim..
For that, I'm genuinely grateful..

Secondly, I would like to wish the Mahbob clan in Melbourne a very Selamat Hari Raya..
I'd like to seek forgiveness from the three of you..
Please pardon my irritating-ness, rudeness & whatever things I did that irks/anger you =))
Raya will be dreary without you three monkeys..
I miss all of you plenty plenty..
Come back home soon yeah..
& good luck for the exams =))

& yes to the rest, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin..

I love to write more but I have a problem putting my thoughts into words..
I've yet to master the art of articulation & being expressive..
For that, I'd prolly would not update this forsaken thing until I have something superbly interesting to type about..
Let's face it.. Whoever would like to read about the lacklustre life of an 18 year old teenager..
If I'm a passerby, I'd rather watch Days of Our Lives than read this thingy..
At least the Soap Opera has much more drama & far more mesmerising..

2006-10-18T10:46:00.000+08:00

Was too worn-out to go to school today..
Shopping spree was marvellous..
Am so not looking forward to school tomorrow..
Dooms Day's drawing near.. God bless me..

For now I'm gonna have fun with my cousins & aunts & rejoice with the thought of not having to wake up early for school tomorrow..
Can I just stay at my Grams house till school ends..?

Can I not blog about school for once..?
Nahz.. I have a pathetic life.. Poor lass..

Do not expect any updates till either this mon or tues =))

2006-10-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

I wonder about the stars & the moon but I've yet to wonder about what I'm gonna do with my life..
Cheng's words have left me thinking..
Do I really want to continue with my A level route..?
That is if I get promoted (Insya allah)
Do I want to go to a poly & study something which I'm not really interested in..?
One thing's for sure, I want to get out of here ASAP & bring my close friends along..
That my dear friends/readers, will never happen..

The world's nothing but a lie and everyone is going to die
But what can I say?
Just help me make it through today.
You don't need a destination just to go somewhere in life.

2006-10-10T15:58:00.000+08:00

So much to say but where do I start..?
Hmm so I'd post about this shitness I call life but laziness has got the better of me..
& you'd not be interested anyway..
So I'll spare myself from typing & you from reading..
Win win situation..? I think so..

Oh & did I mentioned that my Dragon Boat instructor is effing hot..?

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words hold my hand
In other words darling kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing forevermore
You are all I hope for
All I worship and adore
In other words please be true
In other words I love you

2006-10-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

You doing that thing you do..
Breaking my heart into a million pieces..
Like you always do..
& you don't mean to be cruel..
You never even knew about the heartache..
I've been going through..

I miss 5/1 05'..
Classic moments with them..
Can I turn back time..?

Taggie replies
Xuan: I miss you crazy girl =))
Pl: Wah freee publicity arh.. PEOPLE IT'S A MUST GO WEBBIE OK =))
Qz: I'm always bored can.. So change skin arh.. Eh I miss you.. Go out lehz..
Fifi: thanks hunz.. *huggie bck*

2006-10-08T12:49:00.000+08:00

At least 15 people had complained about me hiatus-ing my blog..
Irritating homo sapiens.. (If they fall under this category which I highly doubt so)

To the "hottest guy ever to grace this earth", Ashraf Mohd, [<-- he's delusional] thanks for listening to my pathetic tales =))
Really appreciate it..

Now that I've blogged, are you 15 twerps happy now..?

Taggy replies
Emo me: uhuh you rock my *whispers: bra* =))
Hendra: 1stly, don't act shy arh you..
2ndly, uhuh the previous post was long.. like it..? =))

2006-10-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

Complacent

Word of the day..
One word explains all..

God bless me & my friends..
We need a freaking miracle to get our arse promoted to Year 2..

2006-09-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

Forsaken -- Mistaken Identity

Another night alone, I know it's getting colder.
This obsession starts to grow.
Will I be the one you hold?
Another teardrop wept, hidden questions answered.
This silence has been broken, confessions of a man.
This masterpiece was written, the story of two drifters.
Was it based on love, or was it all false hope?
Will this trinity be ever, you & I together?
Ashes on the floor.
A ballad written for.
Another day apart the hours are growing longer.
Lights start to dim.
Has the end begun?
People come & go, it's memories that linger.
I'm tired of being second, an empty promise sold.
This tragedy was never fate of star crossed lovers.
A poet at his end, a chance was all he asked.
Will it be his moment or was it never meant?
All his thoughts are spoken, in a ballad written for.
A ballad written for.

By a great local band =))

2006-09-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

Like the King Kong (remember our favourite friend..?), I vowed not to watch Snakes on a Plane..
& like the King Kong, I ended up watching it..
Caught it with Hendra (I nearly bite his arms haha) & Najeeb =))
It's quite cool actually especially the part where the HUGE snake tried to swallow the Biz Man's head =))
Was quite disappointed with the ending as usual..
Today was pure bliss.. Had fun during Econs & then lunch with a few classmates & of course crapping with Najeeb..
I miss that dude =))

2006-09-01T12:10:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank god for the fantastic meals I had for the past 2 days..
The fucktastic Japanese meal with my girlies & my "boy"..
The heavenly meal with my oh so loveable sec skl mates..
& of course a avery delightful seafood meal with my parents..
Happy 26th Anniversary Mum & Dad..!

Good things always come with the bad stuffs ( to me it does)..
I've caught the flu..! Yes I wanted to be sick on Wednesday but now, it's a different story..
I can hardly breathe.. & the weather ain't helping at all..
But nonetheless, I enjoyed myself very much for the past 2 days..
Can't wait for the next outing sexy biatches & all right looking twerps of 5/1 05 =))

I'll post pictures when Venetia & Han leng send me theirs =))
Oh and PL figured out my dirty lil secret..!! You rock my world you know you do..!!!

2006-08-28T19:57:00.000+08:00

I try and think of something to write
But nothing seems to come
I'm sitting here late at night
Sitting all on my own
I'm staring at a blank page
Hoping something will appear
But everything stays the same
No thoughts are even near
I think this job isn't for me
To my head nothing is coming
Between the paper and I there's no chemistry
For those simple words I'm longing
Just to carry me to a different place
Is all I want to wish
No words, not even a title or name
How am I suppose to finish?
And I'm trying to think of something to write
But nothing seems to come
Im sitting here late at night
Hoping something will come

Was bored =))

2006-08-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

This paragraph has been erased by the owner as she thinks that it's too emo for fuck sake..
She would just like to say that behind her smiles, bubblyness, nonsensical ways, lies an insecure girl who loves to contradic herself and she's perpetually confused.. So do forgive her =))
She also would like to thank her friends for telling her that she's not all that =))
I guess deep down she knows that =))

2006-08-22T19:01:00.000+08:00

Grey Anatomy

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made.
So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them.
But there are some lines... That are way too dangerous to cross.

--

I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map.
You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.

--

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?

2006-08-20T13:22:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna post the long overdue pictures from the zoo outing..
The next few posts will be filled with pictures from the sec 5 days or whatever =))

Hendra's Randomness

2006-08-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

Life Makes No Sense - The Ataris

Everything is turning grey, but I won't hold my breath today
Cause' I'm not scared and to tell the truth I just don't care.
Are you looking for an answer? When you still don't know the question.

It's like lighting candles in the rain-
Sometimes life can be a pain,
But don't give up without a fight.

Sometimes when you feel afraid, don't give up and run away.
Cause' two wrongs don't make a right.
What's the point in crying when you've don nothing wrong.
It was right there all along.

The world's nothing but a lie and everyone is going to die
But what can I say? Just help me make it through today.
You don't need a destination just to go somewhere in life.

It's like throwing feathers at the wind-
They come right back to you again.
So why not give it one more try?

Just cause' things aren't what they seem
It doesn't mean you shouldn't dream
Just don't get your hopes too high.
Cause' when things don't turn out right
You world comes crashing down.

2006-08-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

A lot of people has been asking me why I "privatised" my enteries..
Here are the reasons =))

I don't want many people to know that I am capable of being an emotek [emo girl =))] & real good at it..
I wanna blog about something personal & don't want people to know..
I don't wanna think twice before publishing my blog so that people won't judge me..
Some thoughts are just meant to be private..

So yeah.. If you think that these reaons are nonsensical then fine with me..
~
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad
Christina Georgina Rossetti

~

2006-08-11T19:38:00.000+08:00

Kau tahu bertapa ku sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Hanya takdir menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa
You know how much i love you
Only angels could take your place
But there's only fate that we could rely on
oh . Caress my soul .
-Translated by FIJAH love herrrrrrr-
- Belaian Jiwa, Innuendo-

There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
- Wonderwall, Oasis-

So many questions asked
But no one's answering
Would it be okay if I left today
Took my chances on what you said was wrong.
I'm jaded, stupid and reckless not sorry
When I'll never regret these years spent
So faded and reckless not sorry
And I'll never regret these years
I'll never regret these years.
- Jaded, Mest-

& I think what I just wrote is going over my head
Im stealing lines from myself
And what I said was never said
Its just a lyrical lie
Made up in my mind
- Lyrical Lie, Cute is What We Aim For-

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else
- The Girl Next Door, Saving Jane-

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorise
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind
But you but you
You write such pretty words
But life's no story book
- Lover I Don't have to Love, Bright Eyes -

2006-08-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

Marching was =)) Minimal mistake..
Mistakes are inevitable when we only had 1 training..
Excuses..? Yes shut up..

Went out with my girlies (minus Firah, Cheryl, Ali, Ili & Massha) & "boy" just now =))
I MISS TOWN so yeah dragged them down =))
Went window shopping & we bought a few stuffs..

Atika: 2 hair clips & a scrunchy(sp?) [GOD SHE LIKES PINK.. PINK HUNZ..?!?!]..
Fizah: 1 hairclip, lip gloss & 1 srunchy [She was wondering if there's purple with yellow dots or vice versa for EVERTYTHING].. Sadly darling not everything comes in purple with yellow dots or vice versa..
Me:Facial wash..
Hendra: Nothing but yes he wanted to buy LOADSA stuff.. He have to save 8- 10 bucks per week good luck baybeh.. NONSENSE.. Only the wallet is important your current wallet is *ahem* ugly *ahem*

& I wanna buy a new shoe, bag ,wallet, shirts, levi's jeans, Adidas or Fossil watch, Wrapped Tour(2006) CD, Taking Back Sunday CD, Fightstar CD, & the list goes on & on..
Thank you so much to whoever is kind enough to buy me at least one of these things =))

Had tons of fun =))

~
Got this from my sister's blog & she got if from some book..

I understand that you don't necessarily love the person who's good for you..You love & long for the one who've hurt you

2006-08-06T14:16:00.000+08:00

I've said this tons of time & i'm gonna repeat it again..

I LOATHE MALAY (the subject)!!
REALLY HATE IT TO THE MAX!!
I still don't see the reason why I should still take Malay & worst the HORRRIBLE exams..
I'm NOT gonna be a MALAY writer or journalist for godness sake..
Shouldn't it be like optional..?!
~
Should I change my blog song again..?
Nahz.. I'm loving it =))

2006-08-05T09:24:00.000+08:00

Wishful thinking on my part..? Well I hope what Tika said is true =))
~
Quite a number of people was shocked to see my emo side..
They say it's not like me to be emo & all..
Well I'm sorry to disappoint you guys but you'll only see what I choose to let you see..
There's so much more behind my smile, goofyness, selenge-ness & nonsensical ways =))
And everyone has their emo days =))
~
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends

2006-08-04T19:57:00.000+08:00

Lethargic is the right word to decribe how I'm feeling now..
Failed my 2.4 run by 1 pathetic min.. Well I've improved A LOT =))
But I'm still mad at myself for walking like 2 rounds..? (add all together)
I COULD have passed.. Oh well it's OVER
~
Abu's the Dad
Fizah's the Mum
Hendra's the Brother
Atika's the Wife
Me the Middle
Massha the Youngest
Dom's the Husband

God I have a spastic brother & an "autistic" younger sister =))
And I'm the nonsense one in the "family"..
I love my girlies & "my boy"..
~
Sorry for not meeting you biatches today..
I'm just so knackered & I have to drag myself home from my Gram's =))
Some other time yeah .. I promise..
~
School really took all my time & energy. =((
Two test on Monday.. Econs & POA..
Tons of assignment to do..
Gazillion stuff to study..
Allah save Nur Fazlinn Rosman
Oh did I tell you I have to march for our schools' National Day Celeb..?
NONSENSE
~
Changed my blog song again =))
Got a problem?
No? Good for you..
Yes? Shut up, go to your window, open it & jump down =))

2006-08-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

It's just a THOUGHT only a THOUGHT
Wake up & smell the REALITY

& when I first met you
I never would have imagined that
I would have such strong feelings for you
I never would have thought that
I would have dreams about you
or miss being by your side
or get butterflies in my stomach
when someone mentions your name
when i first met you
i never would have thought that i would like you

2006-08-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

& So I told Fizah during HT Period..
She was shocked and asked if I'm serious..
Sadly my dear it's true..
It began quite some time ago..
They(Z & Tikz) wanted to know the whole story but I didn't tell them as I have no idea what to say =))
I feel that something good will come out of it..
But I don't trust my gut feeling..
Never have, never will.. Yes you can say that I'm gutless..

2006-07-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

To someone..
Sometimes in life, there's nothing left to do but let go.. Let go of every anger, every sadness, every hatred, every urge of wanting to take revenge.. Forgive & forget.. It'll make it a lot easier to move on.. But never let go of happy memories.. It's the most priceless and most meaningful gift one could give.. You may regret it if you never hold on to those wonderful memories..

One will go away but another will come along.. Both you & I know that you'll be just fine without her by your side.. It is just a matter of time..

You flew down here (wasting your money as usual) hoping that I could be your shoulder to cry on but yet I made a joke out of your situation.. You were not angry with me, instead, you joined me.. You even said I made your day& that I've made it all easier for you.. Well my dear friend, no matter where we are, even when we drifted apart, you know that you could always count on me.. I'll be there.. I'll be your shoulder to cry on.. I'll be there to comfort you and to see the smile that made me fall in love with you.. I promise.. I love you always and forever..

-Sincerely Me-

p/s: it's not Travis =))

2006-07-29T18:04:00.000+08:00

Will it be just a wishful thinkng on my part..?
Only time will tell..

2006-07-23T13:36:00.000+08:00

Went to the market near Anderson this morning with Mum..
I miss that school a lot..
The childishness of it all.. I miss the friends I've made.. The people I met..
The teachers I've learn to respect & love..
The teachers I've learnt not to mess with or avoid at any cause..
The location (near Town & my house =)) )
I miss waking up at 6.30 & going out at 7..
I miss wearing that oh so ever irritating uniform with that sickening belt & the blue-ish tie..
I miss having to sing that upbeat school song & cheering the school cheer
That spirit during Chinese New Year, Racial Harmony, Hari Raya, Deepavali etc..
I miss the fun Sports Day we'll have Every Year.. & winning The Champion for our level every year =))
I miss the nonsensical fun with had during lessons.
The rowdiness in History class, the very fun Malay Class & the Msn-y Social Studies class =))

Ah those were the good old days & I thank god for putting me in a school that's somewhat similar to Anderson =)) I love MI (minus the distance I have to travel to skl & back home =)) )

2006-07-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

I'm glad they are doing something about the war..
Am still not liking those people who started this f*cking war =))
If I can do something about it, I'll ban all guns, knife or whatever shit..
All they can do is fight verbally or at least just punch and kick =))
Now that's more like it..

Political me..? =))

2006-07-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

I would like to point out that some people no wait at least 1/5 of the world's population is a piece of shit.. Why you ask..? Cause they have NOTHING better to do but to CRITICISE Islam..
I know I don't read the holy book EVERY DAY, I don't go for religious class everytime, I sometimes hate the Ustaz for saying too much during the Syarahan.
Anyway it just not fair why Islam is the ONLY religion THAT PEOPLE LOVE to ATTACK!! I said love not always attack..
I somehow predicted that A LOT of people will say that it's all thanks to OSAMA bin LADEN(remember our "dear' friend?) that they( the inconsiderate people of the world) attacked MUSLIMS.. or maybe not..
My dear readers, have you ever given a thought that OSAMA is a piece of arse who psychoed Muslim with very lilttle basic knowledge of Islam so that he can entertained his bored ass and planned stupid stuff.. OSAMA is just an old faggot who's tired of his life but he don't wanna kill himself.. He's just an old SADISTIC BASTARD. OSAMA & ALL THOSE JI BASTARDS DOES NOT REPRESENT WHO WE MUSLIMS ARE! In fact, if you bother to look beyond all this shits, you'll find that Islam is actually a beautiful religion =)) I'm NOT PUTTING THE ENTIRE BLAME ON OSAMA & HIS STUPID FOLLOWERS NOR THE PEOPLE WHO SAID MEAN THINGS ABOUT US MUSLIM!! I'm BLAMING MUSLIMS TOO FOR NOT CORRECTING THEM AND LET THEM CRITISICE ISLAM =)) SO ALL IS FAIR *cheers*

I read my mate's blog and I saw disgusting pictures of Israelis bombing Iraq, Palestine and Lebanon.. Now are you guys oblivious to that..? Why aren't you guys criticisng them? Why are you guys keeping mum about all this unjust war that is happening RIGHT NOW in the MIDDLE EAST.. WHY?! Is it because Muslims are the one suffering..? A YOUNG INNOCENT CHILD was SHOT because he was a MUSLIM and an ARAB. A bullet when through his tiny body! How cruel is that? Kids were being dragged etc. My mate once said that the UN DO NOT ALLOW PEOPLE IN UNIFORM TO HARM MOTHER WITH CHILD AND CHILDREN or whatever shit..
But WHY are these soldiers doing just that..? And the real question is.. WHY NO ONE IS DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT? I don't see Singapore standing up to ask them to stop..

Once again dear readers, I'm NOT TRYING to pick a fight with non Muslim out there. I'm just SICK & TIRED OF PEOPLE GOING AROUND CRITISING OUR PROPHET MUHAMMAD! I'm NOT TRYING TO BE RELIGION-CIST OR WHATEVER YOU THINK I'M BEING.. I'M LETTING OUT MY ANGER & FRUSTRATION! I know some other people with different religion do HELPED US and DEFENDS US.. To those people, THANK YOU! May Allah Bless You.. To Singaporeans HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY=)) I had a blast.. & Thanks for not killing us =))

2006-07-19T17:26:00.000+08:00

Created a new skin =))

I'm scared about tomorrow.. I'll get everything back..
Please pray for me..

The body spots sexy goddess never neglect...

Elbows
In the habit of applying hand cream? Remember to massage the cream all the way to your elbows. Once a week, exfoliate with a body scrub to smooth out rough patches. Not in the habit of using hand cream? Start now!

Neck
A taut, youthful face doesn't count for much if your neck is ridden with lines. No man fantasises about kissing a wrinkle-filled neck. When applying your night cream or daily moisturiser, remember to smooth it neck-down.

Back
Ever heard of bacne? That's what we call the zits covering neglected backs. Dirt & sebum get trapped in the pores when you perspire. If you don't give the area a good scrub, bacne appears.

Knees
Cellulite haunts knees too. When massaging a body-firming cream on your thighs & butt, share it with your knees too. If they're discoloured, slice lemon in two & cup each half over a knee to bleach skin.

Feet
If your toes, heels & ankles are covered in scars, calluses, corns & grime, no Jimmy Choos will make your footsie any nicer. Too lazy to take care of them? Then invest in a good pedicurist. In between visits, apply OPI Feet Callus Theraphy daily.

From CLEO =))

2006-07-17T19:48:00.000+08:00

5 Fashion Rules to Look Your Sexy Best

Rule #1 Never reveal too much skin
If you're already wearing a blindingly sexy top, don't wear a tight mini skirt with it. Tailored pants will make a more flattering match.

Rule #2 Underwear should never been seen
Well, you know about the VPL. Now, for a lesson in managing your bras - fleshtone, plastic, worn out straps should be concealed too.

Rule #3 Tape your clothes
Tap into the wonders of the Hollywood Secret Tape! Secure tube tops & rogue shoulder starps, & keep plunging necklines in place. Tugging is just NOT sexy.

Rule#4 Be comfartable & confident
You don't need 36C to be sexy. Being comfortable with your body & feeling confident about your appearance is loads sexier than a bombastic chest measurement

Rule#5 Practise personal hygiene
Wax, shave, shower, deodorise, etc. Fuzz-free legs & underarms coupled with a shower-fresh scent will make anything you wear look even better.

2006-07-16T01:13:00.000+08:00

The time now is 10 mins past 1 in the moning am I just finished with PL's blog..
Did the layout myself..
I'm so proud of myself.. From someone who knows nothing about html to someone who created a layout..
You might be thinking big deal.. But it is to me..
I've been trying to make a nice layout since god knows when.. A loser..? Well yes..
You may not like what I did but I don't really care.. I did most of the coding yadda yadda yadda..

Here's the pic of PL's layout minus the html shits..

Click for the bigger image..

2006-07-15T09:33:00.000+08:00

Life's a bitch & so is exam..
The possibility of me passing ALL my papers are slim.. VERY slim..
After today I have to start studying.. I don't want to let myself & my family down..
I want to be promoted to Year 2 and then year 3 and then pass my A levels with flying colours & IF my sister is still in Aussie , I wanna join her..
But somehow it seems like a dream to me.. A dream that I can't grab..

Dreams
Hold fast to dreams

For if dreams die

Life is a broken-winged bird

That cannot fly

Hold fast to dreams

For when dreams go

Frozen with snow

- Langston Hughes-

2006-07-11T21:12:00.000+08:00

It's sad that the World Cup is over..
Gotta wait for another 2 more years for Euro 2008 & 4 more years till World Cup 2010..
Really hope Germany will win the Euro Cup =((

School starts tomorrow.. I'm kinda dreading it..
I don't wanna study.. I don't wanna go for P.O.A lecture although I rarely paid attention..
I don't wanna go for Malay & Biz studies lessons.. Although I like Mr Thomas Tan =))
I've gotta stop whinning about school.. If only I can withdraw from MI and go to a boarding school..
Now that's a dream that will never happen.. I mean it's too late to attend a boarding school..

Reasons why I hate staying home:

I'll eat A LOT
I'll get bored every minute
I'll sleep A LOT

Reasons why I love staying at home:

Save money
Watch telly all day long
I can go crazy (not that I'm not crazy outside)

All right NONSENSE post as usual..

2006-07-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

No more Surveys =)) Now it's HALL of FITTIES!!
As in Hall of fames.. yeah you get my point =))
Footie edition =))

Call you up in the middle of the night,
Like a firefly without a light,
You were there like a slow torch burning,
Was a key that could use a little turning.

So tired that i couldn't eat or sleep,
So many secrets i couldn't keep,
Promise myself i wouldn't breathe,
One more promise i couldn't keep.

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep there's no way out,
This time i really,
Have lead myself astray.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like we should be getting somewhere,
Somehow i'm neither here nor there.

Can you help me remember how to smile,
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile,
How on earth did i get so jaded,
Last mystery seems so faded.

I can go where no one else can go,
I know what no one else knows,
Here i am just drowning in the rain,
With a ticket for a one way train.

And everything is cold and dry,
Day and night earth and sky,
Somehow i just,
Don't believe it.
(yeah, yeah)

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like i should be getting somewhere,
Somehow i'm neither here nor there.

Bought a ticket for a runaway train,
I came back there laughing at the rain,
A little out of touch a little insane,
Just easier than dealing with the pain.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like i should be getting somewhere,
Somehow i'm neither here nor there.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway train's heading up the track,
Runaway train burning in my veins,
Runaway but it all seems the same.

(Runaway, runaway)

2006-07-09T12:47:00.000+08:00

My hair still smells of smoke.. The gathering was a success..
Had tons of fun.. Miss you guys.. Poh Lin, Quan Long, Han Leng, Hon Leng, Cornelia, Carol, Qun Zheng, Sherard, Sharudin, Najeeb, Qing Gui, Feng Ting, Ee Chaun and others =))

For the first time in many enteries, I'll post pictures =))
Pardon my fugliness =))

2006-07-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

Both Surveys & Jokes updated.. "juke box" baby..
Jokes.. Is so true.. to me that is.. As usual the male species would complain yadda yadda yadda..

Do you ever see deep into my soul?
Do you see what I'm worth?
Everyday we seem so seperate.
Everynight we seem so close.
We've become good friends.
And i think i like you.
Do you like me?
Everydays' the same thing.
We talk and talk and nothing happens.

Wake up,
Are my lights not quite bright enough?
I'm on my knees ready to sing again.
We can never change what we've said.
I thought you'd listen now.
Because if it's for you, I'll smile once more.

(Chorus)
How much does it take,
When my words seem so faint.
How high am I hung on this wall?
Will you still be there to brake my fall?
Even if things aren't like before,
I'm here, and I'll smile for you once more.

I've been looking back
At my past
And I wish I met u sooner
Cos' maybe then
I wouldnt have to know the feeling of confusion

Take a chance,
If I could have this last dance,
Holding hands, I'll never forget.
I hope it's something you won't regret,
It's what I've prayed for,
And if it's for you, I'll smile once more.

(Chorus)
How much does it take,
When my words seem so faint.
How high am I hung on this wall?
Will you still be there to brake my fall?
Even if things aren't like before,
I'm here, and I'll smile for you once more.

I don't know if he remembers writing this ages ago..
Hope you don't mind me posting it here dude..
The lyrics are nice =))

2006-07-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna edit this post as it's full of shits..
Kelly go home & shoot yourself =))
Mid-years gonna be over soon.. Can't wait..
I'm really screwed.. It seems that I can pass nothing..
Well maybe an E for POA.. That's for being complacent you piece of shit..

I love KAP McDonalds =))
Oh so gorgeous Mr AC =))

i like you
I'm dying to explain my heart to you now..
But I can't =((
Don't want history to repeat itself.. She.. Yes.. Me.. Never

Gotta wake up & smell the reality

2006-07-05T08:53:00.000+08:00

Germany lost to Italy.. How sad is that..?
Oh well at least one of my fav team is going to the finals.. Go ITALY!!
And I hope Germany will get the 3rd place.. GO GERMANY!!!

I didn't know there's a japanese lad in the Italy team.. Am quite impressed..
Sadly I can't find the picture of him..

2006-07-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

The emo days have long gone.. Right..? =))
Exams period.. Hating it but it only last till end of this week unlike the secondary school days =))
Hooray..? Hmmm..
Account test tomorrow.. Just can't be arse to study.. Complacent you say..? Well yes..

Since I'm bored & I don't intend to start my revision till about 9, so let's just update this with nonsensical stuff..

Take the quiz:
What type of movie would you be in?

Comedy
You're funny, laid back, and love to do crazy stuff. Keep having fun :-)

Take the quiz:
What Flavor of Jello are You?

Lemon Jello
You are LEMON JELLO! A little tart but on the sunny side, you remain a popular favorite.

Take the quiz:
Whats Your Perfect Summer Vacation Spot?

Santa Barbara, California
Santa Barbara is one of the most beautiful beaches in the world with some of the best surf. It's one big party all night long, and your bound to come back with some crazy stories.

Take the quiz:
What Bitch You Are?

The bitch
you are mean but not so mean.

Take the quiz:
What does your birth month reveal about you?

December
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

2006-07-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

Taking time off from stuyding Business Studies to post nonsensical quizzes..
Don't judge me by the answers & don't think that i'm "acting cute" or whatever shit..
The answers are prolly full of bulls..

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate
You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys
You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities
Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

How Do Men See You?

Take the quiz:
What Kind of Cute Are You?

Kitten Cute
You are KITTEN CUTE! You are as cute as it gets. You are adorable, snuggly, playful and small. Everyone loves you, and if they don't they're probably mean.

Take the quiz:
What HTTP Error Are You?

404 Not Found
You are HTTP 404: NOT FOUND! You the most popular of all the errors. Everyone knows you. You're really really nice, if a little scatter brained. See you soon!

2006-07-02T09:46:00.000+08:00

SYF is finally over.. Was angry with some people.. They just don't comprehend simple english..
Bring down your god damn flags for god sakes..
It's over..
I miss seeing boys or men in NPCC, NCC or Police uniform..
No more hanging out at the National Stadium..
No more skipping classes..

Yesterday's match was kinda shocking..
France won against Brazil..
And the other match was kinda expected.. Oh well..

Anyway while waiting for the last dry run to start yesterday, the girls and I came up with stupid names..

Rosmah Sharapova
Fizah Federer
Fazzie Roddick
Firah Williams
Ali Kournikova
Atika Agassi

Yes we are all related to a few top tennis players in the world..
Just cause we were dressed like one yesterday.. Haha..

2006-06-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry to make you people worry..
Rest assured I'm fine =))
Yes I know i'm emo-ier these past few days but it's nothing.. Really..

To Poh Lin.. I'm really sorry.. I'll make it up to you after my Mid-Yr..
To Fizah, Atika & Cheryl aka Rosmah Ayu..
I love you guys.. Without you girls I'll die in school..
To Xuan .. Stupid bitchos where the hell are you.. I miss you LOADS!!
School has not been the same without you..
To Chaz.. Shut up & die.. You've changed but I still love you.. Haha..
To Sarah & Kelly.. When are you lasses visiting me arsehole..
To Keith.. You're back.. Was mia-ing huh..?! Miss you prat..
To Cornelia & Carol.. I'll meet you guys pretty soon.. I promise..
To 5/1 05'.. See you guys on the 8th of July!!
To other friends.. Thanks =))

2006-06-27T18:59:00.000+08:00

I just don't get some people..
Am kinda disappointed with a certain someone..
I can't believed that someone said something like that..

Feeling kinda emo now..
God knows why..
I just feel like curling into a ball and cry my heart out..
I don't know why I feel this way.. Melancholy again I guess..
F*cking f*ck..
For the first time this year, I just wanna get away..
Away from everything shitty..
How long must I live through to get away..?

2006-06-24T12:35:00.000+08:00

So much to say but where do I start..?

When There Was Me & You - High School Musical

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

2006-06-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

There's this sudden image of me & my childhood friends Haikel Azhar & Nina Liana running around pinching each other..
That was the good old days..
Idling my childhood away with Haikel, Nina, Ya, Haziq, Abg Zaki, Abg Danie etcl..
I guess meeting up with Haziq, Ya & Kak Nolis & with Cik Jun telling Cik Midah about how close me & Haikel were, brough back fond memories..
I still remember those days when our mothers sat under the void deck with foods while waiting for the school driver to fetch us home..
Of course those days when Haikel was with Adillah..
Man that was hilarious with a caiptal H =))
Oh yeah and of cpurse the Sembawang Beach days =))
Those were good times..

We drifted apart (apart from Haikel & Nina) and now we are like strangers..
Exchanging His & byes when we saw each other..
Not stipping to crap around..
Saw each other online but didn't make an effort to start a conversation..
I know after the hi and how's life, there's nothing else to say..
If anyone saw our conversations online or not, they would never believed that we were once close..
I guess the moving of houses separates us or maybe me & them..
One is in Hougang, one in Woodlands & the other in Pasir Ris..
One is lazying at home, the other two working at Starbucks..

2006-06-15T15:55:00.000+08:00

Remember those days when your friends assure you that we will be friends forever come what may..?
Remember those days when we sat around and talked about our future and reassure you that we will still be friend 10 years down the road..?
I can't help but wonder if some friends really mean it..
I guess they have to forget about SOME of their old friends in order to make way for their new ones..
Whatever it is, the phrase 'Friends Forever' is full of BULLS!

Once upon a time, there were 5 girls who were well close..
They sat around crapping and they naturally had fun together..
One fine day something happened and they all drifted apart..
Well not really..
They split into two groups..
Group A - three girls..
Group B - two girls..
In a nutshell, Group A & B don't even talk anymore
I doubt they will even reliase if one of them died..

Nonsense..? Nope..
Just plain disappointed..
5 years and for some 7 years of friendship when down the drain cause of well some..
Forget it..
It's their life & if they're happy with it good for them..

Wow the first time I talked about it..
I guess it has already come to a point where I know the "friendship" is pointless and nothing I do or say can make it like it used to be..
The signs are there.. It's too late to turn back time..
Our friendship has been poisoned..

I guess I'm grateful to still have my darling Poh Lin..
Although we have not meet up lately I know that I can always count on her =))
Love you Bitch *cheers*

2006-06-13T01:45:00.000+08:00

Since it's the footie fever, I'm just gonna update about footie =))

Both the opening game & the sweden match were by far the only interesting and good matches..
The rest were plain boring.. It was a pain to watch them..
Well to me that is..
Especially England's game.. It was so mundane that I could not be arsed to watch it..

Iran & Mexico match was good during the 1st half but i rather watch some stupid show during the second half..

Can't wait for the Italy, Spain & Brazil matches..
I hope it'll be really good..

So far all the team i predicted will win won their matches =))
Well apart from Sweden..
Maybe I should start betting..
What do you think..?

2006-06-10T00:52:00.000+08:00

Final score

Germany [ 4 ] - Costa Rica [ 2 ]

The match was sizzling hot!!
Germany kept attacking =))
Their forward is good =))
3 goals were scored within 20 mins of the match =))
An exciting one for an opening game =))
1st yellow card was received by this dude from CRC..

Conclusion:
-MOST Germans are lanky apart from Lahm
-Germany is good =))
-KLOSE'S HOT & GOOD

If Germany Continues to play like this the chances of them going to the fibals again are high =))

I think I'll catch the repeat of Poland & Ecuador

2006-06-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

So today is my Sister's birthday

HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY BITCH!!

Today is the kick off for world cup..
like others i'm excited and can't wait..
we're gonna have so much fun watching it..
1/2 of my cousins are here so yeah the house will be chaotic in a few minutes time.. =))

I'll be rooting for Spain, Italy & of course the host.. Germany..
Was a little disappointed when Germany did not win the world cup 4 years back..
Oh well.. Ballack is not playing tonight.. Hope Klose is..
*cross fingers*
I hope one of these three teams will win..
Am so not wanting Brazil to win AGAIN!!
And of course the chances of England winning is Zero =))

So yeah Spain, Italy or Germany =))
RAUL GONZELAZ(sp?) BABY!!
KLOSE *woot woot*

2006-06-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

We shouldn't judge a book by its cover..
There's this one lad from one of my classes and well to me he's a tough guy..
I didn't even think that he could be the lovey dovey, mushy kinda of guy..
Found he's blog recently and I was quite shocked..
He's capable of being nice & sweet.. Not that he's not..
It's just that he used to love to pick on me..
Well it's before the holidays..
Now..? I'm not sure.. We shall see huh..

2006-06-07T21:20:00.000+08:00

I guess old habit really dies hard..
Hmm is that the phrase..? Who cares..
I vowed to change for the better this year as I know it will be more challenging but as you all have guessed...
I'm still the same old me..
Have not touched my books yet..
and 1 1/2 week of holidays have gone just like that..

By the end of this week i'll be an only child..
woohoo..? hmmm
i'm gonna miss borrowing and never returning my sis 1/2 of her stuffs =))
i'm gonna miss misplacing the latest albums that my sis bought =))
ah oh well.. i can do that again after i'm done with Singapore & her education..
can't wait =))

2006-06-05T19:29:00.000+08:00

I guess I can always rely on my friends to bring a smile on my face when ever things aren't going well..
Poh Lin,Atika, Cheryl & Fizah =))
Thank you girlies love you all a lot =))

Went to catch X-Men 3 : The Last Stand since I didn't have to attend that nonsensical shit..
Congratulations to the directors, producers and the others who were involved in the making of the X-men trilogy(sp?)..
All the three movies were superbly good especially the last one..
It's worth your money..
I guess they saved the best for the last eh..
The effects were entertaining, stroylines were nice, sound was just perfect
and of course the actors were FIT!!
yes typical of us girls..
i'm sure the boys were enjoying the ladies as we were enjoying the men *wink*

2006-06-04T13:46:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really wish i have enough money to move away..
away from everything rotten..
am not liking the state my family is in right now..
it's so infuriating how shitty most things (minus school & friends) are nowadays..
talkin about it makes me wanna hurl..
maybe not makes me wanna slit my throat..
yes emo talk once again but you have got to pardon me..
oh well you would never understand anyway..

[ this paragraph has been deleted by the owner of this blog as she realised it was rude of her to call her uncle names & is too rude for viewers to read.. She just wanna say she still mean whatever she said and she will not take the words back anytime soon as the feeling of hatred is still there.. Hopefully it will go away as soon as her anger subside because they are family after all ]

I wanna go home..
I just wanna go home..
I gotta go home..
Let me go home..
This is not my home..
Where's my home..?
I miss my home..

2006-06-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

i'm dreading the day when my sis & the rest will fly off to melbourne..
not that i'm gonna miss my sis or anything as it makes no difference cuz she's perpetually not home..
i'm gonna miss my monthly treats from her tho..
but it's all right i'll force her to buy stuffs from aussie =))

i know i'm not supposed to feel this way but i can't help but dislike my dad..
i know it's shallow for me to not like him just because i'm not allowed to go to melbourne but..
only my family knows =((
i'm not gonna wash my dirty laundry here..

melancholic is the only word to describe my emotion
ah!!!!!

& crave thnks for your tag but i still hate my English..
it's just well.. i just hate it when i failed miserably while attempting to write a flowery essay or just a simple but powerful entry..
get my drift? no? nevermind..

2006-06-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

There's a serious problem with me when it comes to stuyding..
I can never ever sit still and concentrate for more than an hour..
I'm seriously loathing this erm attitude of mine as I really need to study in order to do well for my exams..

And again my habit or procrastinating ain't helping..
Till now I still have not finished any of my assignments..
Not even P.O.A which I usually like doing..
I shall blame it on the holidays and the dull assignments that were given..

I need to get out of Singapore for awhile..
To somewhere like Melbourne..
It's really a pity that I can't go with sis, bros & hafiza..

I should just wallow in self pity in my pathetic moronic planet which i call home..

I seriously think my languages suck to the core..
Read all my enteries & you'll know what i mean..
I wanna write like Hafiz! or Ikan!
Weeeeooooww

2006-06-01T11:29:00.000+08:00

I'm still wondering why I love to procrastinate..
Is it the fear of not being able to do something and therefore i procrastinate?
Is it the laziness that over come me that leads to procrastinating?
Or is it the 'i don't give a damn' attitude that make me procrastinate?

2006-05-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

went to the zoo with fareez, fahmi, atika, fizah, harfia, cheryl & hendra =))
Darlings No.2 ..
superbly fun =))

hang out with Cheryl (Siti Nur Rosmah) & her husband (Noor Hendra Shahril) at Starbucks at Northpoint=))
[HE'S MINE CHERYL LOLZ]
Tons of fun never knew Cheryl is DISASTROUS & a story teller =))

Went to Nenek's house
Wikidly fun =))

Went Pasar Malam with Dad & Mum
BORING =((

can't be arse to uplaod any photos..
1stly i'm looking so fugly
2nd the laziness of it all

Hendra wants to go Night Safari..
No way dude I feel insecure HAHAHA
Hire 5 bodyguards & I'll go =))

Meeting My Darling No.1 Tml

Maybe out with My sister, darlin & co on Sat

1st week of hols & I'm BROKE!!
weeeooooowww

2006-05-29T13:43:00.000+08:00

Mid Year Exams

4th July
8-10
H2 Management
12-2
H1 Literature

5th July
12-2.30
H2 Accounting

6th July
12-2.15
H2 Economics

7th July
8-11
H1 Mother Tongue

2006-05-27T16:11:00.000+08:00

Left Right Left
Left Right Left
Left RightLeft Right Left Right Left

My favourite song for the week =))

Marching was cool..
Suprisingly we all did all right for the lassstt march =))

Ah saw someone that look like Saddad..
We called him Saddod & then i changed it to Sedut HAHA
Saw someone that looks like Amirul too & yes we called him Amiral =))

I hate the fact thta my house is so bloody far from Bukit Batok..
Or school..
Bloody knoyek =((

LETHARGIC & KNACKERED!!!!!!!

2006-05-25T20:30:00.000+08:00

Fuck man.. There's GP Exams tml..
So many homework for the hols & I need to hand in my Lit tml..
Wow how the hell am i gonna do that when i'm too lazy to do it..
Dead..
Lit was fun today..
Suddenly almost everyone's talking to each other..
It's easy to talk to most people apart from one of the Batu & Yusri..
Sheeesh.. Talking to the wall is way better than talking to the batu..
Bloody konyek (i miss this word)
& Yusri well no comment arh.. Can start a convo la but still ah..
Hope Lit class will be like this from now on..
I dun wanna feel sleepy esp during Mdm Sha's period HAHAHA..

I love my girlies.. aka The Gang WAHAHAHA

Am still wodnering why my layout is pink when i hate pink hmmm...

2006-05-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

I shall start with

WE ARE THE CHAMPION MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!

End it with

O6C1 = LOVE BABY!!!

2006-05-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

So Carnival today..
Took tons of pictures but *cough* someone *cough* deleted it by accident i think..

Anyway Shanny, Pl, Sha, Eebyz, yati & liyana came..
Had fun with them =))

Stall did well but let's hope we have enough money to pay the supplier..

Three goddamn pictures.. Sadded..

2006-05-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

So went Ikea with Mum & Atika..
I find happiness in shopping..!!
Got myself a blackboard and a clock..
Now I can happily draw my nonsensical drawings =))

Only Poh Lin's going tomorrow =((
Oh Well.. Whatever..

GP Mid Year next Fri..
Am really DREADING it ARGH!!
Don't wanna flunk my 1st Exams =((
How now brown cow..?

2006-05-18T18:37:00.000+08:00

was fucking furious..
now i'm utterly disappointed..

no point in talking about it..

ARGH!!!!!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You're a rich girl,
and you've gone too far,
cos' you know it don't matter anyway,
you can rely on the old man's money,
you can rely on the old man's money.
Seems Like it never ends,
You need me to find you way,
on my time, my long time,
cos that's not the world,
Everything's so funny now
and if you're not strong you come up and tell me,
I'll swear and tell to set you free,
on my time tonight,
Just don't think you're alone when it all goes wrong,
on my time, my long time.
Don't be so fake getting your life straight,
Gotta find a better life,
Don't wait another day for shit to change,
It's hard enough to let you out,
You're infatuated with being intoxicated,
Slowly dying,
Realizing... you're mine,
Your decisions,
You don't have a vision,
You can't read the sign
Don't be so fake getting your life straight,
Gotta find a better life,
Don't wait another day for shit to change,
It's hard enough to let you out,
You make me cry,
You make me die inside,
You make me fly inside,
No matter how i try,
Keep lying,
I don't need to care how much you mean to me...

Ah the memories =))

2006-05-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

so i TOTALLY blew it during HT period..
shouted at someone.. I'm sorry..
she's right everyone has his/her limits and i guess i've reached mine..
I'm SO SICK & TIRED of the cold war going on between certain people..
i hope it ends SOON like VERY SOON..
CAN TAKE IT NO MORE!!!

ARGH!!

Apart from that everything's fine even P.E =))

Been made an Operation Manager for the carnival..
Both the Creative Team & Fishing Team sre under yours truly... MOI!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA..
So fun..

Just realised I have to go to the west side this whole week..
Sat Institute Day & I have to reach school at about 8.45 for the concert or whatever..
Sun Big Walk.. Have to meet at J.E MRT at 6.45..
What the FREAKING hell =((

2006-05-16T19:06:00.000+08:00

So i got a new nick name.. clumsy fuzzy.. thanks firah.. NOT!! haha
but yeah i have to agree that i'm one hell of a clumsy lass..
oh well what can i do..? god made me this way..

so school was teriffic today..
NO mangkuk to dampen my mood..
& Management was all right.. was munching away and slept so soundly =))

went to atika's house.. the journey there was funny & WONDERFUL *wink wink*
fuzzy likes her ikan and her [insert stuff] too..
that's fuzzy's world =))

anyway i LOATHE bullys..
this kind of people should be shot to death cause their aim in life is to make life a living hell for people..

DUDE he's NOT a NERD cause he wore his SCHOOL BADGE!!
If that's the case 1/2 of the Singapore populations are NERDS you IMBECILE!!
Big piece of SHIT!!

ans while we're on the 'hate' topic, I DETEST POA!!!(well not really but..)
OMG THE ASSIGNMENT IS SOOOOOOO TEDIOUS..!!!!!!!!!

oh n yeah even Massha said he looks better in specs and yes he wore specs today wooohoooo

2006-05-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

If one day I go back in time,
I became the old me,
Will you think I'm all right?
If one day I'm far from you,
Won't be able to see you,
Will you realize that
I've already said my goodbyes?

When your eyes smile at me,
[insert phrase]
I treat you nicely,
But you don't know that,
I miss you, I do
When you told me that you're worried,
When you said that you can't sleep at night,
I want to tell you,
But i'm afraid I'll say the wrong things,
I like you,
Do you know that?

If one day dreams will come true,
Memories will be forever,
Will you remember today?
If one day we realised anything is possible,
Will you be here?

Maybe emptiness makes me think too much,
Maybe i should return my hiding,
We'll meet in our dreams,

Pardon me if its WRONG =))

2006-05-11T22:17:00.000+08:00

today was super fun =))
REALLY great =))
TOTALLY cool =))
SUPER fabtastic =))

Exaggerating..? I don't think so..

nice seeing everyone again especially my darling poh lin & quan long, my honey shannon, my sister sherard and my dears =))

sports day was fun heard zircon (YUCK =pP) was the 3rd.. expected *roll eyes*

school was FREAKING FINE =pP

2006-05-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

so a car NEARLY knocked me down =((

anyway finally asked cheng about the blazer thingy & he asked me to tell iskandar..
sheeesh.. it's a waste of breathe & time..
hope isk( is name is too long n i have no point) comes to school tomorrow as i need it by THURS!!

as expected i failed my 1st GP essay..
Mangkuk said my essay is full of contradiction..
well hello i'm a girl who's perpetually contradicting herself..
get the picture..?! no..?! then too bad too sad..

sometimes i really wonder what the hell am i doing in MI..!
it seems that i'm gonna fail every test & assignments apart from accounts..
might as well withdraw tomorrow and wallow in self pity until the day i die..

melancholic yet AGAIN!!
*the vulgarities of it all*

2006-05-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

-William Shakespear-

2006-05-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

today was fantastic =))

Just realised our debate with 06S3 is the finals..!
I really hope C1 will win..!!

I LOVE GUYS IN BAJU KURUNG!!!
they look so fit =pP

2006-05-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

a nice start..
a nice ending..

hence making today a nice day in school =))

hopefully tomorrow will be nicer day =))

i think i'm falling ill..
i wanna have fever only on friday so i can skip p.e hahaha..
ah life without 1 1/2 hr of p.e is HEAVEN!!

2006-05-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

Fazlinn is ~~tired~~ exhausted..

and so 06C1 made it to the semi-finals or the 3rd round of the PU1 debate..
was elated.. good job C1 =))

I still have a 1000 word essay for econs & argh!!!
school is killing me slowly =((

anyway HE looks better with his specs =))
and of course he looked better today =))

2006-04-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

bloody f*ck..
i swear i loathe blogger this very minute..
i typed a freakingly looooooooonnnnnnngggg entry and they(the blooger bastards) decided to play a mean trick on me when i tried to publish my looooooonnnnggggg post..
BLOG NOT FOUND?!?!?!?!?!
what the hell..
*start cussing*

so i can't be arsed to retype the whole f*cking thing..

10 things I hate about you
I hate the way youre always right
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when youre not around
& the fact that you didnt call.
But mostly I hate the way I dont hate you
Not even close
Not even a little bit not even at all

and yes Sarah i'm gonna post this poem no matter how many time syou reminded me on how gazillion number of times i've posted/typed/wrote this poem..

it's beautiful all right mate..

anyway the earlier bit of the poem tak penting (not important) so yadda yadda yadda..

*pray that they'll be kind*

if this happen again i'm gonna get myself my own ah woteva..

2006-04-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

went back to my alma mater with shannon, li ling & sherard..
took my Os cert..

am still disappointed with my poa & eng grades..
am still disgusted with my sci & maths grades..

it's nice seeing my sherry, shanny n ll agn =))

sold the carnival tix to sherry..
2 down 8 more to go..
anyone..? =((

so mr yong text me and asked if the ex andersonians from millennia wanna buy anything for the skl for speech day or woteva crap..
meh hahaha.. let's buy a panda soft toy..
since our skl emble(sp?) is a bamboo n panda eat bamboo shoots..
anyway you get my point..

2006-04-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

and we won the debate against 06S2 =))

interesting fact..
Fazlinn Rosman bruise easily =))
there's bruises all over my left arm..
so please be nice to me..
don't pinch me ANYMORE..!

I can stand GP lessons NO MORE..!
that bloody mangkuk has the power to...
forget it..

I'm missing Loy Yi Xuan =((

2006-04-21T18:22:00.000+08:00

so i'm gonna blog just for my xuan..

i expected her to come to school today and she did..
although it was only for awhile..
i wish she didn't come today & gave me flower & cookie thingy..
i was coping well without you in school and i was even sure i won't miss you that much..
but seeing you in school today made me realised how MUCH i'm gonna miss your crappy ass..
no more forums with you, no more sing along session, no more hanging out outside the class and sing to the whole school..
come back and visit me soon all right my CRAZY GIRL!!

Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kitakan bertemu lagi

& I wonder when,
We will meet again..

2006-04-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

10 years ago...

I was 7 going on 8
I was in Pri 2 (I think)
I used to believe that couples on TV were real
I played hopscotch
Played block catching, Pom Bola, Hide & Seek etc
I don't give a hoot about my education
I watched TV every single day
My life was simple
The only pain I experienced was when I fell down
& that didn't even hurt that much cause Mum will be there to make it all better
Basically I don't give a damn about the world
& EVERYTHING was simple as ABC

Now...

I think i'm old
I wish my life was simple
I hate dealing with pain that involves the heart
I love my friends
I'm in 4th stage of my education life
I'm still trying to live my life
I'm wondering what will happen next
I'm wishing EVERYTHING were as simple as it used to be
I'm afraid
Whatever difficulties I've faced, I still LOVE my life =))

Note to self: Read Othello NOW

2006-04-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

As promised =))

My gang in And ss

pardon my ugliness =))

Link to the pictures =))
http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=9KbNGTVwwow

2006-04-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

Knackered..

Pictures speak a thousand words =)

06C1

If you want the pics, please go to http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=9KbNGTVwwmI

=)

2006-04-10T21:26:00.000+08:00

I try and think of something to write
But nothing seems to come
I'm sitting here late at night
Sitting all on my own
I'm staring at a blank page
Hoping something will appear
But everything stays the same
No thoughts are even near
I think this job isn't for me
To my head nothing is coming
Between the paper and I there's no chemistry
For those simple words I'm longing
Just to carry me to a different place
Is all I want to wish
No words, not even a title or name
How am I suppose to finish?
And I'm trying to think of something to write
But nothing seems to come
I'm sitting here late at night
Hoping something will come